Hope that the future doesn't turn out like the past

Well today we looked at this site in Media Writing 2 class and it had pictures of before and after death of a few cancer patients. Now I went through my one grandma passing away from cancer and that was a hard time for me to go through - probably because i was in grade 2 when it happened. My one memory of the whole thing that I went through from this experience is just before they lowered my grandma's casket I walked over there and held my hand of the casket and said my final good-bye. Boy did i ever cry then, I cried even more then than during the whole funeral and I cried a lot and i me A LOT during that funeral.

This death like tore the Sauer family apart. My grandma was the one who set up all family reunions and all that stuff like that. Now I don't even talk to my grandpa Sauer, I am sure he doesn't even know who I am anymore and we share the same birth date. Now I haven't seen my uncle,auntie and cousins - who live in Regina - for the longest time now. I hardly talk to my own God Parents who live 15 minutes from my home town.

But anyways my grandpa on my mom's side has been battling cancer for awhile now, and he would never go to the doctor before it and now he keeps asking to go when he has to! I have seen someone - especially him - go through so much pain. Like curling up on a couch hugging a pillow because his shingles were hurting so bad. For those of you who don't know, shingles is a sign of more cancer! That's what I personally saw during my past Thanksgiving break. I also saw him during the Easter break and he was more himself, tormenting the grandchildren as usual!

I just hope when he dies that he dies peacefully, and that that side of the family doesn't separate like the other side!

Now I am not sure if I should use this stuff for my Podcast assignment or if i should use a different idea i have. Maybe I will just keep it to myself and surprise everyone with.

Thats all folks!